Friday, July 11, 2008


I am not a religious man. I don't go to church. My understanding of faith is built in the fabric of the love that I sense around me. That may be considered by some as a relationship with God, but I don't have a name for it, I just know that it is there.

I've been going though some tough times as of late, and now more than ever I believe in the power of faith.

Faith makes me sure that friends and family will be there when you really just need them to be. Sometimes they'll just know what to say, or when to swing by, even if they don't realize you needed them there at all.

Faith helps me to believe that those that I've hurt will be mended. It makes me understand that that the hurt i have, will dissolve and in time our stitches will hold us closer together than the flesh that was torn away in the first place.

I know that through this, my own ideas about who I am have been questioned. I have faith that I will find answers for them. That I am a man who will not give up on walking the path that teaches me to be the best man that I can be for me, and those that I love and have faith in. I have this faith, for education, understanding, therapy, and rehabilitation.

I don't know what will happen next. I do believe, that i will figure things out, keep growing, and find happiness again when happiness is ready to be found. I have faith in that.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

What the thing really is

I have a bad habit of using the phrase 'The thing is..' to interject or interrupt someone when i think my conversational idea is better than theirs. I do it more often than I'd like to admit. And the thing is, well, whatever I end up saying after that is a complete and utter diversion to the the actual 'thing' at hand. In fact, more often than not, it has no relation to the actual thing at all, and so my claim to revealing the actual 'thing,' this miraculous nugget of truth that somehow sheds light on the whole subject turns out to be a sham. Anyone who knows me knows that I can be a total jerk. Just to be honest about things, I should be saying something along the lines of: 'The thing is, you bore me and I'm changing the subject in an awkward way that will either force you to call me on it, or allow me to hijack this conversation. That is the 'thing.' I need therapy.